Most of what we consider living is outside of our four walls, yet an equal part of our lives is spent inside our dwelling areas. So much of what I know of home is beyond owning a house or renting/leasing an apartment.
The world I grew up in and the priorities set by older systems created the “need” to own a home, but why?
I’m from a rural area and people tend to marry and/or purchase a home at a very early age primarily because they regress to the mean/average of what those around them are doing.
This has never matched my desire.
I have never wanted to simply satisfy the status quo and get by. I’m often in spaces where my success, failure, or accomplishment are unknown. I prefer it that way sometimes, but at other times I want to spell it out and stack it up just to get the bullshit out of the way.
My dream is bigger than just one facet of “success”. I’ve always been a multifaceted being and that has potentially made me seem
· Unrealistic
· Unreliable
· Unbelievable
F*ck it.
Those that look like me cannot conceive of a “girl” who stands taller than any “male”, but still has no problem to submitting to excellency in a spouse and support system. That support system seldom looks like me on the outside.
My marriage tends to lead those who think less of “who or what” I represent as an excuse to
Discount or discredit
Nullify or cancel out
What I have built and accomplished on my own reflects all my experiences and that deserves a voice.
It cannot be determined what part is “him” and what part is “me”. I give grace for that because I know of few marriages that aesthetically match what we represent.
I’ll respect that space in whatever form.
The things we build together are so important because we build each other daily. Our time spend together in the office, or on walks intersect with all the ways we expand our individual paths.
There are many who tend to know me but none better than the man I’m married to.
Channeling energy is especially important, but what does that mean? It means working in collaboration with the potential harmony of opposing forces.
That can be simplistic when we allow it to be in the realm of possibility without assuming a threat.
The assumption that you automatically know the intent of a thing
inhibits expansion,
which is why we seek wisdom.
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